I am working really hard to not let myself slip into an anxiety spiral about moving.
I like the place, but I still don’t feel right when I think about it, and my instinct is usually right.
But, no matter how it turns out, it’s only for a year, it will help me save some money and give me more options, and in a year I’ll be in a better position to know what move I want to make and whether I want to try to find somewhere to settle down more permanently in Asheville or if I want to leave.
And maybe I’m just anxious about the change and everything will be just fine.
Puppy’s First Visit To The Beach Will Make All Other Dog Photos Out There Irrelevant
This little fella’s name is Champ. He’s a 9-week-old golden retriever that went to the beach for the first time in Hagar Township on Lake Michigan.
Photograher Patrick Holthof
Source: The Huffington Post
- Finish my B.A. this year.
- Take a year off to work on creating a really solid MFA application — letters, essays, and, most importantly, a great piece of fiction to submit.
- Apply to one MFA program that’s really difficult and probably won’t accept me, and to one or two others that are close to home or low residency.
- Either have the decision made for me depending on where I’m accepted (if I’m accepted to any), or make the tough choice when the time comes.
I am thinking about scary things, like applying to tough MFA programs that would mean me moving to a strange place alone, and what it would mean if I got accepted.
Spent a really nice quiet morning/afternoon with J. I like being everywhere with him — out at bars, grocery shopping, at home just kind of lazing around and talking. He keeps honey in his pantry for my coffee and inspects the bacon when he makes breakfast so that he can give me the best pieces. He thinks about the little things that will make my life better/easier. He tells rambling stories that ultimately don’t go anywhere. When he talks about what he likes about me, he can name real, solid, true things, not vague projections based on the fact that I’m quiet and introverted.
TL;DR: I am happy and mushy and lucky.